Confused...

Have you ever had the feeling where you just don't know what to do next or where to start at? Its strange..the things you do for them and the respect you give them only to find out that you haven't done much at all..or realising that they never even appreciated what you had done for them...fair or unfair? I am so confused at this point...being nice and all that is just not going to get you anywhere for some snobbish arrogant people... It sucks...and I have to live with it for as long as I'm here...hehehe..well the only other option is to leave...get the right thing done or not...you'll still get SCREWED...lol

I guess I've learnt my lesson once again...I have feelings..and so have others..but do you think that the other's will ever appreciate your feelings...BULLSHIT...not even once..when things are good they shut up..when things go bad...they pick on you...its sad...I know I'm probably to playful at times and never serious but HEY ISN'T THAT WHAT LIFE IS ALL ABOUT..IF YOU'RE PISSED DON'T TAKE IT OUT ON OTHERS...why come in to work with a moody face..if you don't feel like working don't even thing about coming in to work...SCREW WORK...lol...If you're not feeling appreciated don't take it out on others and pull them down with you...Just keep it to yourself...CHEEZZ....Nothing is fair in this world..and it never will...and since this has happened..I have told myself to stop being a the NICE PERSON from now on...BEING NICE IS BULLSHIT...I HAVE MY EVIL SIDE...SO...Don't Fucking mess with me...I too can be BAD..wahahahahaha...laters..

IF ONLY

So far so good..no more happenings..lol..anyway, I just read up on my sister's blog today..she doesn't seem very happy and decided to recommend this movie which was also recommended to me by my boss..the title is "IF ONLY"

Its not that OLD of a movie..the actors playing in it are Jennifer Love Hewit and this english dude..forgot his name..but anyway..the movie is about how jenni and this english dude was in a relationship together..and how her boyfriend (the english dude) was always busy working and how jenni had always had time for him no matter what...then one day...it all ended up in a fight and she died in a car crash..then her boyfriend regreted all the times when he was not with her...then the story goes on....and i'm not saying anymore..or else i would just spoil the whole movie...get the DVD and watch it..if you are with your other half..then you MUST watch it with your other half....you will not regret it...i say this movie is the BEST MOVIE so far for couples who are struggling with each other in their everyday lives ....that's it from me now...I hope you'll learn something from it...coz I did and so did my partner..and it will and always be a lesson to remember for as long as we live...."IF ONLY..."

Ada Ada Saja - PART 2

Yes this is part 2...and not that i expected anything as what i posted on my last blog...and it HAPPENED again..lol..

It was a sunday last week, i was spring cleaning the whole house..did laundry in the morning, then by noon i was cleaning up the living room then finally reached my room and GOD knows how much clothes I had to fold...lol just don't have the time to do that when i'm working on normal days...lol..anyway...I was going in and out of the room (for those of you who have not read part 1 you should do so, so you'll understand where this is coming from) and since the knob was already faulty i had to put a plastic card in between the door and the wall to prevent it from self-locking..hehehe...and there i was going in and out of the room..(i really didn't know why i was doing that...) and then *CLICK* the sound of the door locking just as i got out of my room...and i paused to look back at my door only to find that the plastic card that was preventing the self-lock was missing..and i was like ARRRGGGGHHHH NOW WHAT???...well if you are thinking what I'm thinking then YES i locked myself out of my room this time..ooooo i wanted to scream in frustration..(of course i didn't) :P i was like wow..the fun i have when im at home...and this time i'm locked from the outside...ah the irony again...and my mobile phone was inside my room hahahahaha....JUST GREEEAT! i said...so i sat down for awhile trying to calm myself and gathered myself together..took a deep breath...then went to my tool box to get a screwdriver and i started prying at the door again...hahaha..after damaging much of the door knob..it opened..and i quickly removed the bloody door knob...so there we have it ...a HOLE in my room door...need to get a new door knob though, just haven't got around buying one yet....hehehe....me and my adventure's AT HOME...lol...till next time...(i just hope there's not going to be a next time..)sigh...

Ada Ada Saja...

This whole month has been a HELL of a month for me...first scorpions, than centipedes..ah the things that i have to live with...LOL..i thought i'd share with everyone the amazing incident i had when i got locked inside my own room..lol..

It was just this Thursday, 1.30 in the morning, i was about to go to bed..and decided to go visit the toilet before doing so..hehe...and as i reached for the knob of my room door..and twisted it..the door just wouldn't unlock..lol.. i was like "WTF..now what???" of all the things..my door just wouldnt open...i didn't panic or anything..i was just really frustrated about all the things that has been happening to me lately...so i went to my dressing table and looked for something to use to open unlock the door (trying my luck to see if i could be the next McGyver) hahahaha...anyway...found this plastic pen..(it was plastic)...and i tried sticking it into the side of the door where the lock was..(well it was plastic..so plastic breaks if you force it) lol...what was i thinking...it was 1 in the morning..hahahaha...so off the pen went..that didn't work..then i found some paper..and folded it till it was thick enough to slide thru the side of the door (thinking that might work) ...hahaha that didn't work either...so i stood there for awhile...starring at the door...waiting for a miracle to happen...lol...(well of course nothing happened) then i started tihnking about some friends how were living in the area maybe they could help...but when i thought again..how the hell would they be able to come into my house when i'd locked the door from inside...so i was like ah..screw that..so i went back to my dressing table and searched for something...that would help...and then *tadaa* i found this huge safety pin...i was like "EUREKA!!" rush to the door...and slide that pin right thru the door and the door unlocked...hahahaha...*well lets not go into details about the pin..* and i was like thank GOD...or else i wouldn't have to work the next day...so that was my exciting Thursday morning in my bedroom...

Anyway, I am so not expecting anything else to happen after this...its just getting to my nerves now..and I just hope i don't explode anytime soon...hahahahaha...my exciting life alone..:P

My Birthday Blessing...

Yes, I know I haven't posted in a long time..hehe...but I would like to extend my sincere thanks to everyone for such a wonderful birthday they have given me...

At midnight last nite my darling called me and sang a birthday song to me over the phone..that was so touching and sweet. I broke down in tears..*i know i tend to get emotional with stuff like this* just wishing that my baby was with me...but its ok..i have to understand that its for our future...If you do read this baby...thank you for coming into my life...you are such a Blessing to me...always loving you..*kiss*

Then, early this morning just as I stepped into the office, my sister texted me and sang me a birthday song *well in words* too ....then not long after that, mum called and wished me Happy Birthday too...not forgetting my little niece who was trying very hard to wish me Happy Birthday over the phone too..hehehe...mum was telling her what to say.."happy birthday aunty dungdung" *yes i am known as aunty dungdung to my niece..plz don't ask why* and she repeated, "..aaapi....aay..aunty dungdung.." and i went, "Thank you"..and my niece went,"thank you" then i told her that i will be going down this weekend to see her..and she replied, "ok" when i asked her,"how are you?" she repeated after me...lol.."how are you?" hehe..then i answered..."im fine.." and she repeated too..."im fine.." hahaha..such a sweet angel...and that was it...

Then today at work, my colleagues gave me a suprise and bought me a birthday cake and everyone sang together..i almost broke down in tears again..*yes i am very emotional*..never in my life for the past 7 years working with this company did i get a cake...and this is the first time ever..and it just made my day...*SMILES*..I'm so glad that I have great colleagues who care. It really is a Birthday Blessing for me. Thank you so much GOD..

So I just want to take this oppertunity to wish everyone, Thank you for all the wishes and greetings for me today...I love all of you very much..

I think I have another suprise tonight...hehe..but i'm not expecting anything tho....Thank you all...*lots of hugs and kisses*