Loving You.....

Beneath all those hurts
Least that I know
There you were standing with a smile
That touches me in many ways
Nor could I find a word to describe
Thus my hidden soul had spoken it all

Words by Sitty Sambas

Addicted

It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head
Are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

Life

I'm sorry that I have not posted in a long time. Life has been pretty busy lately with work. So I felt guilty for not posting and so the post that I am about to write tonight.

In my past years to date, I've been Blessed with many beautiful friends that come and go. Its great to know that you have friends that care. Its especially great to be in a community of friends that are like you. (i think i hinted right there) ..and we meet the people we love along the way. Then as it keeps going on you start a life with your new partner. Its just beautiful. But it takes a long way to get there for some and a short time for others. Yes. Life can be unfair at times but then again nothing is ever fair in this world.

Don't you agree?

Today

It was a long day for me again today. I was extremely HIGH at work. Had to rush to Kuala Lurah to get my car pass renewed. The funny thing was I forgot to submit my report. (laughs at myself) so on the way back I had to stop by Wy WY Bengkurong to gain internet access to submit my report. You don't want to get screwed the next day. HAHAHAA.

Anyway, the trip down to Kuala Lurah was fairly busy today. With cars queuing up to get across to Limbang. I had no choice but to join in the fun. HAHA. It had rain heavily earlier in that part of the world. So as I was driving along the road back there was smoke all along the way. The roads were dark and there weren't many cars along that way. It felt as if for the moment I was going down this strange path into the darkness. I was like cool! HAHA (somehow wishing it was cool). It could have been another crazy adventure for me as nothing much really happens here in Brunei. HAHAHA. Anyway, I stopped by Wy Wy and here I am trying to post something fun up in my blog today as I have not been posting too lately.

Well I guess that's about all I can say for today. My battery is dying. There goes the beep. I'm signing off...

My Angel

You are the guardian of my life,
You’ve touch me in so many beautiful ways,
You’ve shown me what life really means to me,
You’ve taught me the value of being alive today.

I love you with all my heart and soul,
And I want you to know how much you mean to me,
And the countless Blessings that you’ve brought to me in my life.

There’s so much more that I would like to say,
but there’s just one thing I want you to know,
That you will always be My Angel, my ONE and ONLY
I love you.

Life

Relationships, decisions, work, family are all part of life. But what is it that you really want in life? Ever thought of that? Where do you want to be 5 years from now? Do you have a goal in your life? The purpose of living? Are you happy with what you have now? or contented in other words? If all these are bothering you..then that makes you special. Why? because not many people think the way others do. There's always an urge to want more. Do better. Think of it that way. It makes more sense to life when you're able to overpower those questions.

Don't we all want to be someone special someday or shall I say a successful person someday? Are we willing to take the risks that one must go thru to get there? Are we willing to make that commitment to be that better person than what you are today? The choices you make in life today determines your path to where it will lead you. It is never to late to want it so bad. There's always time coz only you can make time. Life is all about choices. Think BIG. It does make a difference.

You Found Me

Is this a dream?
If it is
Please don't wake me from this high
I've become comfortably numb
Until you opened up my eyes
To what it's like
When everything's right
I can't believe

You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me
You found me

So, here we are
That's pretty far
When you think of where we've been
No going back
I'm fading out
All that has faded me within
You're by my side
Now everything's fine
I can't believe

You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me
You found me

And I was hiding
'Til you came along
And showed me where I belong
You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know?
How did you know?

You found meWhen no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me

(You found me)
(When no one else was lookin')
You found me
(How did you know just where I would be?)
You broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
The good and the bad
And the things in between
You found me
You found me

*Music & Lyrics by Kelly Clarkson*
(Dedicated to someone special)

What is LOVE?

To me it is a something wonderful. Something so beautiful that meets the eye. Not physically but mentally and emotionally. The dream you have always dreamt of. And finally its there right in front of you. It sends electrical signals down your spine. Love makes the world around you feel safe and accommodating. Its just beautiful. There’s no other words that can express the meaning of love. I guess the only way to express it is thru your feelings towards someone. The way you hold her in your arms and look deep into her eyes and tell her that you love her. Take one minute and just close your eyes. Picture the one in front of you. See the beauty in her eyes and look deeper into her eyes and you will find how much love there is that is just waiting to explode. You will see how deep the love will go till it warms your heart and you never want that feeling to go away, ever.

Love is about having fun with someone special. They make the world go round. *smiles* Love is mentally stimulating, don’t you think so? What do you think of Love? What do you think it really is?

InSincerity

Have you ever had someone who would sweep you off your feet every time you meet them? Your heart starts racing when you’re with them. You stutter and just freeze when you talk to them? Have you felt that before? These people only want you when they need you. But when they don’t they leave you longing for them. They tell you that you are the world to them but only to find that you have been fooled by them. You give them 2^nd chances over and over again. But what do you get back from it? Do you people think that it is OK to mess around with other people’s feelings? Do you know how it feels to be played all the time? No. You don’t! All you people know is to please yourselves. Enough is enough! You apologize again and again but it becomes routine. It’s like your lips has been programmed to utter the word “SORRY” the Hell with that!

Sometimes I just don’t understand. Or rather, is it me that don’t understand or is it the other party that doesn’t? Or is it because you rather see or listen to what YOU want to and filter the rest? Do you find that playing these games are fun for you? Don’t you ever stop and wonder how the other party feels? You mean the world to them don’t you realize that? They’d do anything for you. They’d go to the ends of the world for you only to know that they have been played over and over again.

You know that they’ve hurt you so much but you keep persisiting saying that everything will change one day. You put faith and believe that things will change but did it?? Tell me????

Never Say Never

Who would ever thought a guy
Would want a girl like me
Who would ever thought that I
Would fall so easily
Who would ever thought that we
Would finally come to be
I guess they just don't know
How much you mean to me

Who would ever thought that they
Would have some words to say
We'll go on anyway It's alright - it's ok
Take whatever come our way
Together we will stay

I got three words to say Never say never

I can't believe they'd stop out happiness
By trying to pull us down with such a mess
Why can't they let us live just like the rest
And keep us out of all this crazy madness
Now when they talk I think it's just a shame
That all they do is sit and think my name
When all that I do is mainly
Sit and think about my baby and me

Now baby they can't believe that
You and me are together
That's why they should have never Never said never
There were times when we thought that
You and me could never be together
That's why we should have never Never said never

*Music & Lyrics by Brandy*

Love this song by Brandy. Means a lot to me. Ever listened to a song and you know how you have that feeling where you get all emotional about it and that it relates to you somehow directly or indirectly? heehee..I'm sure everyone has had that once or twice in their life. Who gives a D*** about what people say. Its your life, not theirs. You live it as you wish too. No one can stop you. Agree??

Misunderstood?

Humans are incomplete unsatisfied beings. They always want more. When two people meet, there is magic in the air. Everything else doesn't matter. But when things gets out of hand selfishness steps in and love is lost and anger sits in. Why? Do we blindly loose ourselves in whatever we feel is right without even stopping once to think about the what the other feels?

What about conscience? Guilt? No. Never will one be left with guilt. Never will they have the conscience to judge what is right and what is wrong anymore. We do what we feel is right and then compromise. Do you feel the same way too?

It hurts when the other misunderstands and when they don't see the other side of you. If they had only waited a little longer and looked deeper into our hearts will they find the true love that they are longing for. Sadly this rarely happens. It Hurts.....